Last week, a picture was passed around our office due to the pure joy that it evoked. One of our super sweet customers posted the picture on our facebook page to share her precious little angels. When I laid eyes on this picture, I couldn't contain the huge smile that immediately came to my face! Not only was it truly to so fun to see our creations contributing to this most precious picture, but it was also a reminder of God's most incredible creations, babies.
It was not until today, that I realized the much deeper story behind this picture. You know, we all get so caught up in our own lives, and especially on facebook, things can be so removed. It was a reminder to me that everyone has a journey, and most often others are so unaware. Okay, so back to the story...after seeing the picture, I just knew I had to share this joy with others. I contacted Tami, the mom, and she put me in touch with Jamie, the photographer. Today, Jamie and I got the chance to chat, and wow, what a fabulous photographer - not just in talent, but also in heart. Jamie went on to tell me how this picture truly came about...and I warn you, get out the tissues!
So, Jamie was running a contest for a free session at Jamie Burnett Photography. Not only was she touched by the incredible contest entry sent to her by Tami, but also the multiple entries from Tami's friends and family willing to give away their winning session to Tami. After reading her story, this mom is beyond well deserving, not only of a free photography session, but also of this INCREDIBLE blessing that God has given her and her family, times THREE!!
Take a minute to read Tami's story below, and then give your children a very big hug!
We had twins in June of 2008, a boy and a girl Audrey and Avery. A couple of hours later, the nurse rushed in and said, “we need to get Momma in the NICU right away.” I was nervous and felt like I couldn’t get there fast enough.When they rolled me into the NICU the doctor proceeded to tell me that their hearts both stopped at the same time. She went on to say things, but I just didn’t understand what she was saying. I looked at Adam and he said, “Our baby girl is gone.” I was in complete shock. After much persuasion, the nurse convinced me to hold her, I didn’t want to hold her out of fear, I didn’t want to face reality. I still wanted her hooked up to those machines, because that meant she was still alive. But they unhooked her and wrapped her up in a blanket and put her in my arms. It was so hard. My body was going into physical shock (septic shock) due to the massive amount of blood lost during surgery, and my heart, and mind were in shock and not able to comprehend the magnitude of loss I just experienced. We sat there, crying, and staring at her. She was so beautiful and perfect, I couldn’t understand how she couldn’t be alive. My wheelchair was parked in the middle of my twins, and to my right was our sweet boy, Avery. As we looked into Audrey’s face, heartbroken, we would look up and see Avery’s tiny body, fighting for life. They worked on him for another hour and half. The doctor explained that there wasn’t anything left for them to do and asked what we wanted them to do. I looked at her and said that I know what she was saying, but I couldn’t tell her to stop trying. How can you tell someone to stop trying to do everything they can to save your child? Just minutes later, he was gone. We never thought about taking pictures of them, we weren’t ready or had planned to have them on that day and so we didn’t have a camera with us.
I never knew leaving would be so difficult. There were no babies in my arms and no carseats to fill. We had their funeral the day after our 8th anniversary and then we were faced with a new life and learned how strong we were and how good God is. God has been our rock. Adam is such a strong man of God and really helped me get through it. We never gave up hope. In fact, we didn’t have a middle name for Audrey and during the time I was in my room after they were born, I starting thinking about her middle name. Immediately, I felt like I heard the name Hope being spoken. It was so clear that this was to be her middle name, I couldn’t believe I hadn’t thought of that before! But little did we know that “Hope” would be what would bring us through the most difficult time of our lives, and keep us living. If it weren’t for hope we wouldn’t have had the strength to keep trying. We tried IVF again in Jan 09 and June 09 with no success. We tried again in October and are finally pleased to be pregnant…with triplets and we are due on our 10th anniversary!!
Because we didn’t have the opportunity to take professional pictures with Audrey and Avery, it is even more important and on the forefront of our minds with the delivery of our triplets. We want to make sure that we capture their first few weeks here with us with special portraits and capture their smallest of features. We can’t go back and get close up shots of our twins tiny feet or hands, but we can with our triplets and don’t want to miss this opportunity to celebrate their lives through photographs.
Not only was I inspired by Tami's strength, but I was also blown away by Jamie's generosity. Not only did Jamie give Tami this free photography session, but she hauled her kids and all, more than 11 hours to photograph these precious little baby girls. My philosophy in life is when you put good out there, and have faith, it comes back ten fold. This is evidenced time and again, but Tami and Jamie, you are both an inspiration to us all, and I am truly grateful for that.
I hope you all enjoy this photograph as much as I do!
OMG thats adorable!
ReplyDeleteThis story will touch me forever. Thank you for shring.
ReplyDeleteWhat an incredible, BEAUTIFUL blessing these baby girls are!!!!! My heart breaks (and tears fall) for the babies the parents lost---and NOTHING will ever erase that pain---but I hope these little ones will ease the heartache.
ReplyDeleteAs an aside: there is an incredible organization called 'Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep' (www.nilmdts.org) that will come to hospitals--for FREE--to take professional photos of infants/newborns who have either passed, or who are not expected to live much longer. Every photographer who works for the organization volunteers his/her time, does some simple artistic touch-ups of photos, and provides them at NO charge to the family.
I am a volunteer photographer for this organization, and there are thousands of us nationwide. I'm also a Mom who has experienced loss. It doesn't matter if a baby lives for a brief moment --- or if she never draws a breath --- they leave permanent footprints on our lives, and they deserve to be celebrated.
GOD BLESS this family---enjoy those babies. And--in about 15 years--I hope you remember how very much you wanted them (*grin*).
I LOVED this picture when I saw it on your facebook when it was posted!! It is the most amazing picture, and it is soooo perfect. great story to share! :)
ReplyDeleteThis has moved me to tears...not tears of sadness but tears of gratitude for the generous gift to these people and for their faith that there is room for happiness and love aftersuh loss.
ReplyDeleteSuch a heartbreaking and heartwarming story at the same time! Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI am crying so hard because my baby girl was born 1lb 7oz and those months in the NICU devastated me. As I read the story was transported back and could smell and feel the NICU around me. OMG!!!! how blessed I feel because my girl is perfect today but how sorry I am for these people. The feeling indescribable to see your child so small and helpless with all those tubes. How incredible that they tried again and now have 3 blessings. My heart goes out to you in your sorrow and happiness.
ReplyDeleteI to am a mommy of an angel baby.
ReplyDeleteOur first born daughter was born sleeping on January 7, 2010. From that our prospective of life and family changed. I became a volunteer photographer for "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" so that other families could have those precious photos.
We to have endured fertility treatments and we have been blessed with another beautiful baby girl. Hope and faith is everything......